In the Letter of James, the writer says: “If any think that they are religious, and do not bridle their tongues, but deceive themselves, their religion is worthless. Religion that is pure and undefiled before God, the Father, is this: to care for widows and orphans in their distress, and to keep oneself unstained by the world” (1:26-27).
At certain times, when I am most aware of my emotions and most honest about them, I feel as if I am living on the verge of some vast change. Right on the very edge. Teetering on the brink. That vertiginous feeling is unsettling, to say the least. And the daily news does nothing to relieve it.
Lately I have been having this recurring dream—I am standing on the edge of an abyss, looking down into a darkness that is darker than night, then I feel the ground under my feel crumbling and giving way. There is a single moment of utter terror, and then suddenly I am wide awake.
In the dream I am alone, but I don’t think I am by myself in feeling “edgy” these days. All kinds of people register that uneasy sense the world is changing—and not for the better, that familiar things can no longer be depended upon to remain the same. Some feel the threat of a changing global climate, and the rising of the seas as a sign of the end of the world as we know it; others hear the hail of gunfire at a Fourth of July parade as a token of the breakdown of law and order and the triumph of chaos and the end of the idea of America: others worry about the specter of war in the East and feel the cold shadow of a rising Antichrist. The dollar has inflated while our trust in authority has deflated. We may blame our leaders, but the truth is it is the spirit of the times.
That edgy feeling takes everyone differently. We might want to ignore the disturbing, unsettling realities of the contemporary world, but they have a way of forcing themselves upon us, like an illness that will not be ignored. Our feelings of unease and vulnerability are symptoms of a spiritual pandemic. None of us are immune. We share in the uncertainty of the times.
But for those who follow Jesus Christ, the times have always been edgy. We have always lived with tension–in the world but not completely of it. The Letter of James addresses that edginess and seeks to define what “religion that is pure and undefiled” means. It certainly goes beyond just thinking pious thoughts, and saying easy, comfortable words, or having the right answer to theological questions. It implies a new kind of existence lived “before God, the Father,” a life of holy silence.
For James that new kind of existence, religion that “is pure and undefiled” always involves disciplining what we say and how we say it. The uncertainties with which we live give rise to conflict and anger. It is impossible to escape that atmosphere of tension. The world is awash in spiteful language and obscene talk. People feel justified in saying anything at all, no matter how soiled and hurtful, in the name of expressing their true feelings. But this must not be the case with Christians, St. James says. The first task of disciples is to fill the empty spaces in our lives with a clean silence–to establish a holy quietness as our rule. Living a holy life means rejecting the language of violence, and saying a soft no to what we may want to say, which often arises from our anger and our sense of uncertainty, and yes to what we should say, which expresses our faith in Jesus Christ.
That other component of that holy life is to say “yes” to a world of crying need. Rites and dogmas have no meaning apart from a faith that is active in works of compassion for the vulnerable and neglected. And those works of compassion are impossible except by a peaceful, disciplined spirit, detached from a world of chaos and change.
I was walking on the beach the other day, and I watched, far out at the edge of sight, a white gull, riding on the waves. The bird was all alone, floating on the restless water, nesting on the surface of the sea. It had no idea how vast the ocean is, and yet it must have some inkling how dangerous it can be, how immeasurably stronger than itself. Yet unafraid it floated. Millions of millions of gallons beneath and around it, yet its back is hardly even wet. It has surrendered to the power of the sea. It is humble and absolutely vulnerable, yet unafraid. Bobbing on the waves, drifting on the surface of the sea.
We live at an “edgy” time. All of us sense it. To one degree of another we share that feeling of being on the verge of something, a sense of uncertainty in the face of a future we cannot foresee or control. But it precisely at this precarious moment that we need to fill the empty spaces in our lives with something other than foreboding, with holy silence and concrete good works. This is time let ourselves float upon the immense mercy and strength of God and be constantly upheld.